fuckingshitasshole

My mind is lost in this kind of terrain.who to be blame you say? No one is responsible of what others do upon themselves. So the answer is plain simple. I am like this because I choose to be like this.no one is putting a gun on my skull, forcing me to be a numbskull bitch. Seriously no one. But these medication is practically sucking my life out leaving me dry and hopeless to the world. Indisspossable. I can not go on living this life full of terror and anger and shame and guilt and confussion. It is time to grab whole of those balls in my pocket ( like I have any!) and stare at life face to face and say...BULLOCKS to you my friend.


The plan here is to either :-



overdose and get my guts pumped out

Or

Overdose just enough to get high and sleep

Or take the keys and drive out of here

Or

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